Seems that a big black cloud is always over your head.
This maybe for good reason. I think its a test of patients.
The univeral powers maybe telling you something about the awesome powerfullness of your new bike and to make sure you have got everything from the kit install to brakes to the care you take riding it.
Waiting and wanting.
When you get out there, take care and always alert pedestrians with a bell when you ride up behind them and ride slow.
Another ebiker around town here just flies past pedestrians from behind, no warning. It makes me cringe to see this.
Even myself was guity of this on my first ride, its easy to do. I just didnt think.
I see in a vision of the close future, the clouds will go away and you will be very happy.
I hope it all goes to plan.
Good luck.